Having my own opinion

Blogging is a great thing. I mean, pardon my arrogance a bit here, but I've started my own website ala blog during my A-Levels years. When was that? 98-99? Something like that. I can't even remember the website's address anymore because it was deleted by the server since I've stopped updating it for a year or so. Which is stupid because a lot of stufs I wrote then, I couldn't write them anymore these days. And stuffs that I wrote which I saved into my pc were lost when my pc brokedown in 2001, I think.

But this is a good place to practice your writing skills. Maybe expand your mind into thinking deeper thoughts. I stopped doing that because it depressed me. I thought I was being clever, being funny and all. Sure, you feel good about yourself, but then I started feeling bad about it. Am I doing this just to impress people, or what? And then I started having negative thoughts about everything that had happened in my life. The more I thought about everything, the more pissed I've becomed.

My life has been odd. Odd from the day I was born. I'm different from everyone, from own family. Being clever has not worked out for me too much. Having a great IQ doesn't bring me happiness. I tried stupifying myself, you know. Since from experience, as your cleverness goes up the graph, your happiness will go down to the drain.

And you know what, the most irritating thing to me is when there are people who try to be clever, try to look clever but saying craps taken from other people's quote (pretending it's your own quote). As if they are the all-knowing person in this world and then force other people to fathom their way of thinking. What a load of bullshit crap. I hate that type the most. Don't you have your own opinion? Are you stupid or something? And the worst part is that they are so full of themselves, they can't even take a single advice when the truth hurts them. Even if you wanted to look cool, act like one. Don't act badly. Your acting is so bad, people are just laughing at you in your back. What the fuck is that, huh? What the fuck?

Some people are briliant. Have a really deepful thinking into their lives in their own perspective. I can dig that. Experience does really teach you to live a more meaningful life. There's nothing wrong to have a thought of your own. Just be original, and don't expect or force people to have the same crap as yours. Or vice versa. That is so not cool.

I hate writing these days. I really do. I'm just pissed off, that's what.



Cool off...have a cigarette. Make yourself more stupid. At least it makes you calmer and happier whilst slowly killing yourself in the process.