Photography

I'm not an artist. Well, I don't think that I have the talent to be one. But I do like to express myself, my heart-being to the world. I just don't really know what's the best medium to do so. I attemped writing first. Not so good, I would say since my language is so messed up between Malay and English. My english is not half-bad but I learn my english from tv shows and movies that I watched. So my vocabulary is quite limited to only what I've heard. ( I don't read, I'm much too lazy for that).

I learned guitar-playing since I was 16. On and off playing for a couple of years and I can only produce my own tunes for the last 2 years or so. Out of 12-14 tunes that I made, only 2 or 3 that I can say, relate closely to my heart.

And now, photography. I only learned photography since last year, more or less. On and off learning from borrowed cameras. I know how to use photoshop, doing basic editing and retouching since my university years but more to just for the sake of knowing how to use the basic stuffs inside the software. My only camera before this was a compact film, RM100 cheap Kodak kamera. You know, the one where you have to use thumb to turn the film inside. Very noisy and a bit embarassing at times since all of my mates use digital and I'm still on film.

My sisters supported me when I asked them to borrow some money so that I could buy a relatively expensive DSLR camera. I borrowed RM5k each plus my own money and I don't know when will I be able to repay them back. Some guys are quite embittered and on some level, despised my coming as a photographer. I mean, I haven't got a photography job yet and people are saying bad stuffs about me already.

I don't feel bad about it though. I'm not that bothered about it at all. I was bred from a boarding school system, so loyalty to your friends comes first. Backstabbers are usually will be dealt harshly. Your family will always be your family but your friends are family too. So, in my book, I don't betray my friends unless they betray me first. Now that, really bothers me. Just don't jerk me off, that's all I'm asking.

I'm still searching that part in photography on how to express myself. I like it when there's emotion in that picture, there's a story to be told in it. That's difficult. Technique-wise, I'm ok I guess. My learning curve is going just about in my expectation. My limiting factor is that I'm a bit shy when taking pictures. Not much experience when interacting with people whilst taking my pictures. And I'm not that much comfortable taking snapshots of outsiders; let's say, a girl having a drink on the side walk and I wanted to take her picture drinking that beverage. I'm a bit shy to do that. But I really wanted to take more of those kind of pictures.

"I have no special talent. I am only passionately curious"

I like this quote. It describes me as a whole in just two sentences.

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